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Excerpt From a Novel-in-Progress
by Peggy Rambach
She looked down at the cards. The backs
were decorated with purple moons and stars and ringed planets,
a pattern that would have made imaginative wallpaper for a childrens
room. Will I meet someone, she thought? Is anyone out there who
will love me? This was ridiculous. She felt like a twelve year-old.
She shuffled the cards. The air they stirred disrupted the candle
flame. The problem was that one question was too limited. Or maybe
it was that it had to be a question. Because really, what was
she doing but making a wish? The cards might as well have been
birthday candles. And what were the wishes but whatever she thought
would make her happy. No wonder in fairytales they usually got
three. Because happiness, at least the kind she was looking for,
was like the cataclysmic start to the universe or the division
of the very first cell -- a singular and miraculous convergence
of many things at once.
To hell with him. She wasnt going to ask one question or
any question at all. Instead, she just thought: love. That was
it, just love. And then she cut the deck.
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Cameron sat in traffic as usual, just
South of the entrance to route 128/95 North. He knew that once
he was past the exit, things would ease up. Or he knew, maybe
not. He knew you never knew what the traffic would be, driving
into or out of Boston, just that you could count on it being irritating.
How long had he been staring at the same tire tread lying next
to the dead grass of the median? He inched closer to the taillights
of the pick-up in front of him, just to feel like he was going
somewhere. He knew the back way, route 28, the original road that
led North/South into and out of Boston. It paralleled the four-lane
highway he sat on now, and eventually turned into his towns
Main Street. But then, there were the traffic lights. And anyway,
route 28 wasnt exactly a secret. Still, this commute was
better than the one from west of Boston. Hed suffered that
for five full years, and for every one of them, had begged Sarah
to move. Im the one who pays the bills! hed
said, Im the one who has to get into the car and go
to work every day!
- and nights and weekends, she screamed back, like
youd want it any other way.
She had a point there. Without his
work, without his career, hed have nothing to get up for,
no reason to face rush hour no matter where he lived. Work was
his solace, his shelter, his life-source, even if he felt, at
times, it was no more than a glucose/saline drip and intubation
on a ventilator, the bare minimum to keep his heart pumping.
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